Today this blog is three years old. THREE! YEARS! OLD! It blows my mind. Regardless of whether you’ve been reading since the beginning or if this is the first time you’ve visited this blog, thank you thank you THANK YOU for reading. Thank you for coming here and sharing your comments and support and advice and experiences and jokes.
You are proof that the Internet is full of wonderful, kind, awesome people, and I feel so blessed to be part of such an inspiring community.
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In lieu of posting today I’m going to point you all to Lorrie’s post about her struggle with eating in private. Lorrie is my friend and I’m probably biased but honestly, this post is one of the most moving things I’ve ever read in a blog. The first time I read it I saw so much of myself in Lorrie’s words that it actually made me sick to my stomach. The second time I read it I cried — because I was afraid and ashamed and part of me was glad that I wasn’t the only person struggling with the fear and the shame and scariness of it all.
My bad habits are skeletons in my closet. They are shameful little secrets that no one knows about. How I used to go from one fast food place to another so that I could amass food without them knowing I was ordering all of that food just for me. How I’ve thrown food out of the car window. How I’ve eaten a pint of ice cream in the car without a spoon. Or the little weird habits that I pick up while eating in private. If a car passes, I pretend not to be eating.
I’ve blogged here for nearly three years and shared lots of ups and downs. It’s so easy to write about successes and so difficult to write about my struggles and failures. I wish I had the courage to do it more often, and I’m so proud of Lorrie for having the guts to write about something that’s so hard to share.
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Tagged: bad days, blog stuff, confession, deep thoughts, eating habits, food, food addiction, support
home?
Last night I made an offer on the condo I like downtown. It’s a complicated sale and I won’t go into details, but it’s likely I won’t hear a final answer about whether or not the offer has been accepted for at least a week. Maybe longer. I’m trying to be patient. It’s really hard (that’swhatshesaid!) but I’m trying. I’m walking that fine line of trying not to get too attached and stopping at the home improvement store on my lunch break to pick out paint chips.
If you’re feeling generous say a prayer/good thought/cross your fingers/wish on a star/whatever works that this all ends up working out. In the meantime I’ll be in the corning, obsessively checking my phone for missed calls and trying not to bite all of my fingernails off.
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Tagged: home, stress, support
So let’s talk about the five pounds I’ve gained since I moved back to Cincinnati…
Um…it sucks… and I hate them. That just about sums it up.
Okay, so I’ll elaborate.
When I moved back all of my friends called individually and were all “Let’s get dinner/drinks/ice cream/dessert!” and I was like “OMG! Totally!” and the next thing I knew I had gained ten pounds. Just chugging along having fun and all of the sudden I was back well into the 290s. It wasn’t unexpected, but it wasn’t a good feeling either. So I cut back on the socializing and started paying more attention to what I was eating and managed to lose five of the ten pounds I gained back.
Then I had an appointment to get back on Adipex that got canceled at the last minute, but is in the process of being rescheduled. So that sucked.
And since then I’ve stalled. I’ll do good for a couple days and then blow it by going out for dinner and drinks. And then I do it again. A few days on, one day off, a few days on, a few days off… it’s not a good system for me. I’m not gaining, but I’m not losing either and I need to be losing. Another problem? Getting the exercise in. I know, I know, for a good stretch there I was kicking ass (I worked out for 40+ days straight for god’s sake!) but I’ve had a hard time getting back into the swing of things since I moved. I need to start getting up and working out in the morning again but since I’m already leaving the house at 7 AM so I can get to work by 8, I need to start waking up around 5:15 and, oh man, that’s rough.
So here’s where you come in. It’s time for some tough love people. Tell me to get off my lazy ass and get up to work out. Tell me it’s worth the effort. Tell me that I’ll feel better once I get started and losing again. In my head I know it’s all true but I think it might help to hear it from someone else.
Lay it on me Internet.
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Tagged: confession, dieting, eating habits, exercise, Lent, motivation, social situations, support
Today marks the official halfway point of the Lenten Challenge. We’ve made it 23 days you guys! Twenty-three days! So it’s all downhill from here right? Maybe?
I’m stunned I’ve made it this far. Stunned. Twenty-three days of exercise without interruption. Some workouts have been better than others but the point is I did them. I’m pushing myself to do something that seems impossible. Working out every day might seem like small potatoes to some people but it isn’t to me. Not at this point in my life. But think of the possibilities, of the seemingly impossible things that we’re all capable of doing through tiny little actions. We can lose weight, or run marathons, or write novels, and God knows what else. I’m slowly realizing that there isn’t really anything we can’t do. And that blows my mind. It also makes me feel pretty freakin’ awesome.
How about the rest of you Lentils? How are you holding up after twenty-three days? How are you feeling? And for those of you who have fallen off the wagon it’s not too late to jump back on! We’re only halfway done! You’ve still got twenty-three days of possibilities ahead of you. Sometimes it’s scary and it’s not always easy but it’s worth the effort. You can do it.
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Tagged: exercise, goals, Lent, motivation, support
